26 January 1998

Maggie,

Tonight I had a great time talking with you over the phone. Deeply inside me, it was a wonderful feeling sharing that moment with you, one moment that I will never forget. Anticipation, is which I am looking forward, be real not not.

You know when you told me about your 'daughter' , 'Chicken Soup' stories, driving lessons, working life, your friends and family, I am touched and I listened carefully for each and every word that you uttered, least I miss out something that I should not, and will never retrieve it back again. Pardon me ifI put if too dramatic, but somehow I am relating past experiences with the present one - friendship that I treasure too much - you, that the fear started to grow. Such a fear of knowing that there's hardly or never an everlasting passion that I had felt tonight.

All I want to say is that to me, you are a wonderful God's creation, and I hope you don't mind me telling you that you have been my inspiration and motivation, ever since we started talking over the phone. So be strong and may all the Love shower upon you, by our God, family and friends, and me.

I have been dreaming of seeing you face to face, but something always pull me back. The mixed feeling always there whenever we talk about it. I lack the self-confidence that you have. The more I talk to you, the more I felt 'speechless'. Remember when you told me about your dream? One that you always kept running, not knowing the reason - I knew that you don't easily give up hope on thing that you pursue, and the confidence is always with you. I felt the warm because of your fire, that burns with the perfection in my eyes.

Anticipation. It keeps me going on with my life. It's something ahead to look forward and not backward, and I was telling myself that if I were to wait for a long long time before we meet, I am nothing than willing to do that, it would be a wonderful thing meeting you eventually one day. Maggie I miss you so much tonight, can you feel it now dear?

Simply,
Andrew