1st Febuary 1998
Maggie,
Last night's conversation still stays fresh in my mind. I want to tell you that I am
really happy that you have given me the 'C' answer. Though I might not picture you exactly
the way you are, but the sensation is already built up in my mind. I am certain that I
will even like you more when we meet.
I am so joyful and touched when you told me your intention of taping your lovely voice for
me, and I told myself that would be the voice that I want to listen to when I am happy,
sad or at any part of my day when I miss you.
At times, whenever I think of you, while reading, brushing my teeth, or listening to
the music. I tend to picture you, and I am still trying my best, though the best solution
to it is seeing you face to face.
I became a man of vulnerabilty ever since I got to know you, susceptible to your passion
and compassion. Each time I replay your voice mail, I told myself that this is going to be
the last time, listen carefully to what she said, lest you won't have the chance.
Did you remember last night when you left the message in my phone voice mail, you didnt
realise that it was a recording tone that greeted you and tried your best hiding the
embarassment, I smiled to myself, not because it was funny or anything, but the way you
said in the message was pure and sincere.
I started to became an artist, painting your voice, you life and your charms, from piece
to piece everyday we talk on phone. Knowing that good times never last long, I wanted to
imprint you in my mind. I hope we do it together, you help me with my piece of art..
Andrew
"The only way of knowing a person is to love them without hope."
Walter Benjamin (18921940), German critic and philosopher. One-Way Street, "Arc
Lamp" (1928; repr. in One-Way Street and Other Writings, 1978).